It’s been awhile since I’ve used this blog…I think the last time I used it was in December and I think I’m gonna keep using it to write my thoughts again even though I have a journal for that. It’s currently June 3rd, 12:34am…and I’m sitting here contemplating on what to say to you and I feel…speechless? Stuck? In 8 days, we will be together for 5 months and I know that may not sound like long, but I can barely stand a date for 24 hours, I’m glad I got to spend my time with you for 3650 hours. I know, super corny, right? I’m generally someone who keeps their guard up, but you and I got along so well that I started to let go and express how I truly feel. This relationship experience is all new to me and I’m thankful that so far it hasn’t been a bad experience because it’s how we make of it! I know you try your best to make me happy, and you’re doing a great job, love! I appreciate you so much oh crap I think I might cry BUT NAH MAMA RAISED NO BITCH..okay, kind of. I know you’re the softest person that appreciates me for who I am. I’m super happy I am comfortable with you, because I can tell you my whole life story and you wouldn’t judge. I appreciate you when you know I get sad or frustrated because your presence is enough to make me feel better and when I feel like I’m not enough, you’re there to make me feel better and you can make me transition from sad to happy in a matter of minutes. There may be times where you might make me upset, but you’re someone I can’t be mad at for long because even your dumbass matches my humor so well that I can’t be mad at you forever. You make me smile a lot, whether we’re mocking each other, doing things to embarrass each other, or just sitting there and enjoying each other’s silence, it’s pretty much small things like that, that makes me love you. I love that you stick by your word when you really say that you’re gonna put your 111% into this relationship because you know that I’m going to do the exact same. I might not notice it sometimes, but it’s made me realize that it’s some of the small moments where you’re trying your best to keep me happy is where some of the 111% is. I might be expecting something big, but I think you’ve taught me a few things on patience and to just appreciate everything in life. When you’re not around I like to watch the videos you make because they make me smile and when you can’t crack a joke when we’re video-chatting, I watch your videos because they make me smile and it’s definitely one of the reasons why I love you because you’re so creative and I’m so proud to be your girlfriend because I can see you make a positive impact on people’s lives. Recently, you revisited that question I asked you when we first met and your response was “I can’t really say what kind of videos I make like a genre but I really want to convey the feeling of pure happiness that makes them want to smile". I think you’ve almost achieved that because I can’t wait to see what the future holds for you, or us! I really hope that you continue to grow and accomplish the goals you want for yourself because that makes me so happy to watch you grow in front of my own eyes. I can’t wait until we raise a plant and fish together or who knows maybe we’ll raise dogs and children in the future! I hope only for the best for you and just know that I’m gonna be your #1 fan, girlfriend, and your best friend in the stands (I hope I’m your best friend hehe). Continue to be you and remember that there are so many people who love your videos and you being yourself just as much as I do too!
so last night when i was trying to sleep y’know it was dark and quiet and my eyes were closed but then i suddenly started laughing because i remembered this gif
